Tuesday, December 31, 2013

He has the flu

Well, the very last week of 2013 officially sucks.

On Sunday our car broke down, then I was told that my store location is being shut down, and now I can't even work, because I have this mystery fever, sickness of doom. They weren't 100% on what I have, but I was sent home with steroids, and a new inhaler.

It's times like this, I am anxiously awaiting the new year, for a symbolic fresh start. I am also grateful for my insurance. Seriously, I wouldn't have even gone in if it weren't for the insurance.

Monday, December 30, 2013

And no message could have been any clearer: If you want to make a world a better place take a look at yourself and make a change

I've been putting off making this post for nearly five days-- I was just busy, and I never got around to posting pictures from Christmas, and naturally, during that wait time life happened.

It looks like the powers at be will be shutting down the Old Navy at the Gateway on January 26th. We were asked to wait until today to start publicly sharing the news. I love my store, and this news is heartbreaking to many of us associates, and leaders. I essentially have 4 weeks to get my shit together, and decide what I'm going to do, and where I may be going.

As always, I am blown away by the love, kindness, and care GAP, Inc is showing their employees, by helping us get new jobs, and new locations within the company. If anything, the horrid abuse I suffered during my stint with Landis Lifestyle Salon and the tyranny that Richard Surber created with that evil dictator, awful, sub-human, Staci Ditzer, has made me even more grateful for my team with Old Navy.

Tomorrow I will be talking with my store manager about staying on with the company, and maybe relocating to the Sugarhouse location.

In the meantime, I've been readying myself for 2014. This last year has had many blessings, and adventures; I was able to go home to Oregon twice, we visited Seatle for Marc's brother's wedding, I was able to continue on my journey towards a better, healthy life, I traveled to Santa Cruz for Hoopcamp 2013, and saw Monterey for the first time in ten years. However, this year brought on the very first time I've ever been fired from a position-- making it worse, because it was wrongful termination. This is the year of another miscarriage, and more heart-ache, and on December 29th I was told the most constant and steady thing I've had in my life the last couple years (ON at the Gateway) is going away.

In these heartaches, I have decided to be strong in 2014, and kick some ass on the year I turn 30.

And, as far as counting our blessing from 2013-- I think I felt the biggest blessing of all this Christmas season, in my boyfriend's nephew. As I keep struggling with having to leave my house having his weeness at family event's made it all the better.

Axel will be 3 months on January 7th (his uncle Jon's birthday)

It has felt lonely with the DiFrancesco's sans children, and it makes me so happy that Marc's big sister, Kathleen, and brother-in-law, Matthew, have fixed that by starting their happy little family.

Axel and I, December 28, 2013 at family pictures

Other than that, I'm grateful for Kieran, Liam, and Violet in 2013, and their continued roles they'll be playing in my life in 2014. Here's our Christmas in a nutshell:

Kieran, Violet, and Liam Walters on Christmas

Kieran James, age 9, December 25, 2013
Liam Cohen, age 7, December 25, 2013

Violet Quinn, age 4, December 25, 2013

The Walters Clan, December 25th

The kids, mid-orgy-of-greed

Anyways, before I end this blog entry I wanted to mention that due to some unexpected Christmas money, it looks like I might be able to make it to Hoopcamp 2014 this year. I can't wait to talk to Samantha once I re-activate my facebook to talk to her, and actually decide if that's what I want to do with the Christmas money, or if I want to put said money towards Healing Mountain Massage School Tuition.

To be continued...

Tuesday, December 24, 2013

Just cause it kills your liver doesn't mean it ain't medicine

There's nothing in the world as wonderful as snuggling with my kitty-meows on my couch with the slight euphoria from a small bowl from the comforts of my warm cottage-- makes me feel grateful.

Happy (early) Christmas. I just wanted to post a few pictures from Noni's house, and our Christmas Eve activities.
Chinese food feast

The kids appreciating their present haul

Broseph and children

Violet being Fennekin the fox

The crazy Walters clan

Dirty Girl Scouts

Passing out the gifts, and the orgy of greed commences
Anyways, as soon as the holidays are done and over, and I've posted all the pictures from the holidays-- I'll be getting busy with wrapping up December, and gearing up to tackle January's goals.

I hope everyone has a very happy Christmas.


Monday, December 23, 2013

Yuletide Blessings, and What-Not

After my last post the universe threw me a bunch of trials to try and steer me off course. I feel like I didn't stray too far, though.

Here's to staying faithful regardless of depression.

I'm still slowly, but surely working on personal goals so that 2014 is kicked off with a blast-- I think it's going to be bomb.com.

Anyways, I want to spend a good portion of this blog entry focusing on recent blessings, and good things-- I feel like that will help keep my mind from fixating on my depression.

Today I took Kieran, Liam, and Violet out around town. The night before they had spent the night, and we made Dirty Snowballs, and Almond Roca, we ate lasagne, watched a holiday movie, and were asleep around 10PM so we could be out the door to send a package to my sister, Amanda, and my niece, Zoey.

It's my hopes that after today I won't remember the stress of a public commute with three children under the age of ten, the day before Christmas Eve, but these smiling faces in the following photos:

Princess Fancy at City Creek in downtown Salt Lake City, Utah

Silly faces after going to the Post Office on our walk to Old Navy

Liam, Kieran, and Violet 

Anyways, I'm embracing my old schedule I miss so much-- early to rise, work out, go about my day, and early to bed. Lately, instead of getting swallowed by the idea of all the changes I need to make in the near future, I've been celebrating the good choices I've already made to make my life better. For example, I know that food, especially healthy, whole foods are important to fuel a person's day, I know that sleep and a healthy bedtime routine is important, and I know the importance of a good exercise routine. I have been struggling with remaining faithful regardless of a difficult scale readings. But, I know how important consistency is.

In the meantime, I am so blessed that I had a moment in the last few days where I had a livingroom full of littles scribbling in their art journals on the floor, in front of the Christmas Tree:

Saturday, December 21, 2013

30 Days of No FaceBook

So, things have been very busy around here. I guess, first things first. Shortly after I posted the youtube video for 10 Weeks of Healthy Maternity Hooping I, ironically, miscarried. I was encroaching on my 11th week. I don't want to necessarily get into all the gory details of the situation, we were all very sad, but are doing our best to move on in a healthy way. 

Speaking of health, I've recently decided to go 30 days sans Facebook-- the past few weeks I have felt a lot of extra negativity, and I felt it was best to take a short break. It's a healthy choice for me. I know I will have to eventually go back-- I run Buckleberry Hoops off of Facebook, and I really enjoy having the hooping community close by.

However, after the decision to take my break from the mega social media website I had Kieran over for a Christmas shopping trip, dinner, a movie, and to wrap the presents he bought. We had an amazing time-- I really felt the benefits of not checking my phone constantly, and REALLY being there and enjoying Kieran.

I know that the best way for me to be a truly healthy someday mom, I need to start fine-tuning those practices I want to instill into my children into me. I want to practice a full-living, healthy life-style. I feel the best thing for me to do is to practice being loving with the littles I currently have in my life.

I just feel as if the people in my life shouldn't be an excuse as to why I can't do something-- they are a reason. They are a reason to get my booty up in the morning and lift weights. They are the reason to get up and walk my booty a little more often. They are the reason that regardless of the scale not moving, I remain faithful to making my health a priority, so I can continue caring for the ones around me.  

Hopefully, I'm not coming across as completely cray. I just know that there are some things in life I can't control, my body-- what I put into it, and how I use it as an instrument, is something I can control. I hope in the next 30 days without facebook I am able to really meditate on these thoughts, focus on hooping, and get some goals accomplished. No excuses.

Anyways, I should probably wake Marc up. We are running a bunch of errands today, and trying to get as many things done as possible. But, I also wanted to post some super cute, recent pictures of the kiddos, and some of the pictures I took of me with my Christmas present from Marc. A new LED Hula Hoop. <3

Violet and I made burgers together-- we ground our own meat, and she thought that was the cat's pajamas. 

Violet put my strapless bra on my cat.



He's simply having a wonderful Christmas time. 

Kieran let me style his hair prior to our special date the other night. 

He chose to watch Wayne's World while wrapping gifts he bought his family. 

Marriage is punishment for shoplifting in some countries. 

My friend, Tana, and her mother, Sandra, made the LED.

She is absolutely beautiful.
I hope the next time we're in Eugene Skye and Keith can get some bitching pictures.

I need to think of a name for her. 

I have just been calling her Skittles.