Thursday, January 30, 2014

Curvy Hoopers Video Challenge

Cry Wheel at Hoopcamp 2013
This post is almost two weeks in the making-- meaning, I started it a week ago, and there it sat in the 'drafts' box until it had nothing to do with anything going on, and everything was now old news.

So, moving on...

It's that time of year. Time for the Punk Rock Hoops and's Curvy Hoopers Challenge 2014. Last time this challenge took place I entered using the following video (following is my entry from 2012):

I remember feeling during my last entry like I wanted to do more, but my entry was from the heart.

This time, I was able to plan my video a little more accordingly, even though I still felt limited on time, and I felt limited by only being able to use Windows Live Movie Maker off of my laptop, from footage I shot off of my point and shoot- I still gave it all I got.

I purposely chose to wear all black so that the LED would pop more. I decided to use The Yeah, Yeah, Yeahs, Y Control-- a song I remember rocking out to too many times to count, with Alex and Ryan on the journey between Dorena and my mom's house. The song, to me, is full of strong, good memories, and I wanted that to shine through with high energy.

I think that comes across in the final video.

I also, tried to use a couple cues from the actual music video, for example during the countdown part in the music video, I used the LED pictures Skye and Keith did for me when I visited Oregon in April 2013. I felt like the pictures did a good job of punctuating the video in a really fun way.

I tried to add an element of me by rocking out, being vulnerable, and awesome all at the same time-- I still kinda feel that the weird lighting in those shots make it look like Courtney Love, and Robert Smith had drunk sex on my face-- but, whateves.

Here's this year's entry:

After I was done taping the footage I used (a mix of night time and daytime LED dancing), I took a quick snap shot of myself-- and felt it captured how I always feel after hooping; healthy, strong, radiant, beautiful. I added it to the end of the video, because I wanted that to be the last imagine left with the viewer-- a strong, confident version of myself. Me, at my hoopiest. 

Me after filming the video for the Curvy Hooper Challenge

Anyways, all-in-all, it was a great experience, and I am grateful I did it.

In the meantime, Jessie and I celebrated 10 years of being homeboys with tattoos, and girly television (Lost Girl). And, then we house hunted (sorted), and smiled lots. It was a good day. 

My two hooping tattoos. Hooping is forever apart of me, as is my bestie.

Mine is the one on the left, and Jess is on the right, pretty cool, eh?

Sunday, January 19, 2014

New Hooping Videos, some goals, and my Monday schedule for "homeschooling"

Here's my latest hooping video. It's not half bad-- in fact, Jess and I are quite fond of it. I think in total,after editing some time out, we are looking at about 14 minutes from that practice. I kinda wish I hadn't taken anything away from it. Never-the-less, this one is pretty cute. This was made on Thursday, January 16, 2014.

This week I did pretty good. 

I netted today at 694, burning 1,079 calories during my workout.

I've been mostly proud at my ability to keep my sugars down. 

Today was a pretty good day. I was able to get a good breakfast in me. I attended church with Jess, Ian, and the kids afterwards we went to Dickey's Barbecue. Sadly, I chose not to go to Kieran's birthday party tonight, but I have a full day planned for all three of the kids tomorrow, as tomorrow is our very first Monday all together since the boys started homeschooling.

I'm really excited, because for me this is like when the boys go on summer vacation. I try really hard to do different fun things with the kids, and I feel like the experience of Jess homeschooling will be really good practice for me to come up with pseudo educational, entertaining, and productive things for us to do together. All three of the kids really enjoy when we do arts and crafts together, and I am really looking forward to incorporating artsy activities, while also assisting me to get out of the house from time to time.

In the morning, after I have Vi on Monday mornings, I have a fairly regular schedule with her, and I'm hoping that tomorrow we fall into an easy, and natural Monday schedule, looking something like this:

8:30- Clean-up
8:45- Morning Discussion (at the table): "What are we gonna be doing on Mondays?"
9:15- Sari Reads
9:35- Break and TEA TIME
10 Stretching
10:10 Hooping/20 minutes outside
10:30 Educational Video in Sari's bed (rest time)
12:10 PM- LUNCH
1 Leave house
2 Pioneer Memorial Museum
4 Leave Museum/Marc for ride?
4:30- Watch Marc play video games
5:30- DINNER
6:15-Clean up
6:30- Coloring/Roseanne until mom picks them up
7:30- Jess

Also, in there I need to make sure I make time for a workout, and I'm working on a new project. Here's some deleted scenes from the project I'm working on:

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Inspiration for the day, fo' sho'

Watch this for a good cry.

100 Days is 3 months and some change. 

As I cried watching this, I couldn't help but be inspired by this woman's strength. I know what it's like to be 300lbs (my very heaviest I was just shy of that, and I did get up to a size 26), be super depressed, feel like everyone else is doing great things and feel like I wasn't capable of doing great things myself.

To quote my friend Skye; "...people rarely become obese without accompanying depression. Being good to yourself means taking care of your body. That doesn't have to mean six pack abs or bulging biceps, but it does mean eating healthily and being active most of the time."

These are some things that I've learned:
1. You need to REFLECT. You will notice that your feelings and thoughts create either positive or negative actions. You need to master your energy and direct it in the path you wish to go.

2. You need to be CONSISTENT. When you miss a workout, have a sugary treat, don't see results or become sick for a few days - get back on track! Currently, I am feeling physically better today, than yesterday. I am giving my body a day of rest, and if I'm feeling good tomorrow, you bet your sweet ass I'll be working out.

3. You need to have FAITH. Focus on what you want and let that be your guiding light. That faith is the only thing sometimes that will give you the push you need to get out of bed and keep going despite the challenges in being consistent.

4. You need to find DISCIPLINE. You will become mentally stronger in this process every time you say no to your favorite coffee drink and yes to every painful workout. Doing what you don't want to do, because it is good for you is discipline - and that alone will breed success.

5. You need to feel CONNECTED. Attaining happiness is not about achieving a physical ideal, it's about the journey and the people within that path. Health is not just about fitness, it's about balance in all areas of your life: professionally, personally and physically.

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

'Cause I, Gonna Make You See, There's Nobody Else Here, No One Like Me

My favorite workout buddy, Violet
I probably have The Pretenders stuck in my head today due to the fact that since Violet left me yesterday I've been kicking myself for not introducing her to the wonderful ways of Chrissie Hynde. Thank god there is always next week, right? 

Plus, next week I'll have all three of the boogers for Monday, as Jess is homeschooling again. I'm trying to decide if I should do some sort of homeschool thing with them on Mondays, or if I should just continue my normal lessons on being fucking awesome with the kids. Meaning, I am my brashy-non-child-friendly-self, and treat them a little more like adults than I probably should-- giving them the freedom for them to be theirselves. There is nothing cooler than being you.

Today, I logged into Facebook for the first time in almost a month-- I have a few more days before I'll be fully active, and to be honest I kinda don't want to reactivate it at all, but I also don't want to feel any loneliness from missing anyone. And, I miss a lot of my hooping friends, and my family. So, I posted the following today: 

"I'm not officially back yet. I'll be back in a few more days, but I was feeling guilty, and missing a lot of people (especially my hoopers), and I felt my sudden and abrupt absence needed some explaining-- especially after getting a mystery care package from the beautiful, talented and loving AJ the other day. 

I am really struggling with a lot of big emotions, and a lot of life changes. There's been a lot of transitioning going on in my life (something one might think I would be a little use to by now), there was a lot of anger in me, and I felt a lot of negativity and I just really needed some time away, because I was not conducting myself with integrity-- I was hurting. 

If you're a tarot reader and I tell you that I haven't done a single reading for myself in weeks that didn't have the Hermit in it, maybe you'll understand. 

My heart is weighed down with a lot-- I have been perpetually sick since the 28th of December (in fact I have yet another note from the doctor's telling me not to go into work, but I'm going anyways), I've been bogged down with a lot of medical issues (aside from the random weird sickness) that has to do with my 'girl parts,' my anchor in Utah was gone for several weeks making it impossible for me not to run home (I think her three children helped tether me here in her absents), I've been missing my mother something fierce and feel like I have no one I can really talk to about it with, I've been crying non-stop in the privacy of my closet because I'm still dealing with a LOT of anger I feel about Landis-- and the only reason that's happening is because we recently learned that my Old Navy is getting closed (my location will be officially closed on the 26th of this month), and that store has been my constant, and my co-workers have really been there for me since I started there in 2011-- they even saw me through the ending of Marc and I's engagement, and helped tremendously when he was in the hospital. I love Old Navy At The Gateway Mall and it breaks my heart that soon I won't be there anymore.

Moreover, I'm sad about the miscarriage. I'm sad about all of my miscarriages. And, I'm angry. Really, really angry. I make jokes about how we'll just adopt a little Chinese girl, and she'll look just like gong-gong (my dad), but I hate the fact that my body doesn't create life, just kills it. I hate the fact that I've always felt broken, and it took until 2007 to diagnose me. I hate the fact that said diagnoses puts each of pregnancies at a 65% miscarriage rate opposed to the average women's 12%-- I hate being told that there's a 75% chance that carrying and birthing a life that we created just won't happen. 

It's just a lot, and I just really feel that focusing on myself was needed for a little bit, without the extra random anger/bullying I felt every time I got on to facebook-- I mean, I can only call complete strangers 'chode monkey' so many times before it stops being funny. 

In the meantime, I am really missing pictures of my niece, Zoey (I start crying every time I think about seeing her in April, when I'll be in Oregon again, and my sister and niece will be there too), and seeing pictures of the young Miss Ten Eyck so it won't be much longer before I am officially back."

I know I over-share online, but I also know that my over-sharing sometimes helps me and helps others. I have found encouragement, support, and love from the most unexpected places due to the fact that I over-share.

Anyways, I've been doing non-stop research, and proactively moving, taking care of my body, and trying to put as much love as I can into the people that are immediately around me. I've also been letting Marc take care of me. It's my hopes when I get back onto facebook, full-time, that I'll be in a better place than I was a month ago; physically, emotionally, and spiritually. 

This is last week's overview from MFP. I am under because of working out, not from eating too little.

Nutrition over-view from last week. My big goal was to eat less sugar. I did that!

One thing I was trying to do last week is try some new recipes while cutting out gluten. While experimenting in the kitchen I tried a new breakfast smoothie, an Avocado Raspberry Smoothie. And, it was delicious! 
Avocado Raspberry Breakfast Smoothie
The following recipe serves 4, but I decided that Marc and I could have two servings each ;)


1 Avocado
10 ounces frozen raspberries (no sugar added)
1 1/4 cup Simply Orange Juice, or fresh squeezed OJ
1 cup ice

Put everything in the blender until smooth. INSTANT DELICIOUS!

Quick Nutrition

Amount Per Serving
Total Fat:7 g
Saturated Fat:1 g
Trans Fat:0 g
Cholesterol:0 mg
Sodium:0 mg
Carbohydrates:18 g
Total Sugars:10 g
Protein:2 g

And, now a bunch of pictures of my cat, Gabriel (Marc and I have 4 pets; 3 cats, and a bun-bun).
Gabe has an intense love/hate relationship with his girl, Violet

My boys, watching 'Friends'

Friday, January 10, 2014

Mah Chicken Wraps

I like experiencing snow in Utah.
Since it's been very slow at Old Navy (it's like they announced we were closing, and things came to a stand-still-- it's mind-numbingly boring, but at the same time, at least I'm getting paid something), I have been spending extra time in the kitchen. Which is kinda nice, now that I have the new elliptical trainer I don't have to brave the Utah winter as much (which is good, because I'm positive the inversion is killing me), and I like focusing on what I'm putting into my body. 

Making the monthly menu has also helped put in time in the kitchen-- I basically envision what I want, then make it happen. The kitchen is where I truly succeed at the game of Life, plus, I'm a believer that the more I learn about nutrition in the kitchen I'm more likely to get a handle on PCOS, and make my body healthy enough to build a family.

Tonight I made Chicken Lettuce Wraps, and they turned out A-mah-zing! 

The finished concoction 

1 Tablespoon Sesame Seed Oil
1 pound Ground Chicken
1 large onion chopped
6 cloves of garlic
2 Tablespoon Liquid Aminos
1/4 cup hoisin sauce
1 to 2 inches grated ginger root
2 Tablespoon Rice Wine Vinegar
3 teaspoon to 4 Tablespoon sriracha
1 bunch of green onions
Bibb or Butter Lettuce leaves
Roasted Peanuts, chopped (optional)

I ground my own chickens, but one can also pick up some ground chicken at their local WinCo. After grinding the meat I put my wok over medium heat and put the sesame seed oil in to get hot. Once the chicken is cooked through I put in the onion, and garlic-- when everything started smelling super good I added in the Liquid Aminos, hoisin sauce, rice wine vinegar, grated the ginger root, and added Sriracha.
This is what it's gonna look like. Nom, nom. 
With sriracha hot sauce you can notice that there is some in there after about 3 teaspoons. I added 4 tablespoons to this dish, and that REALLY cleared Marc's sinuses, but was totally perfect for this Chindian.

At the very end I added in a bunch of green onions, then served open-faced on some fresh lettuce.

I've been buying this and letting it live on my counter for a week at a time.

I filled the lettuce with a few heaping spoonfuls of the chicken mixture

Viola! 10 minute prep time, and 10 minute cook time

Anyways, I am looking forward to my kitchen over-haul, making the grocery list, and preping for next week. Good nutrition, high activity, supplement, hydrate, and smile. 

Convenient Theories For You Monthly

I've been feeling really frustrated lately. I've been working my ass off and haven't had an on-scale victory since October. I'm still dedicated, but I can't help but vent out some frustration.

I am still making and meeting monthly goals. I am still challenging myself. I am currently and consistently getting 1 hour of cardio 4 times a week, and 1 hour of strength training 4 times a week. And, I do different activities so I'm not just doing the same thing over and over. I am being mindful and thoughtful of the foods I'm putting in my body. I am eating REAL foods. I'm being upfront and logging everything into MFP.

What the shit? 

Before I got pregnant I was sitting at 193. On my 7th week of pregnancy I was 188 (right when I got back from HC). I lost the baby, and I was 202. And then a few weeks later I was 215, and have been sitting there for a LONG time-- over a month and a half (I'm currently 212.8). 

It baffles me, because I know that I am doing the work, eating correctly, drinking tons of water, and logging. I am going to continue doing what I'm doing, despite my frustration, I know I'm making good choices.

Maybe it's just also time to up-the-ante with the good choices, bite-the-bullet, and start eating Gluten-free again. I feel like I should mention that I'm not one of those people that think that Gluten is the enemy. I try to be a firm believer in too much anything can be bad for you, and moderation is always key. However, since there is SO MUCH more information on the internet about PCOS then there was in 2007 when I was diagnosed, especially in regards to fertility/PCOS, and being gluten-free that it is nearly negligent of me to ignore the benefits of going Gluten-free in regards to taking control of PCOS.

I guess I'm just tired of the lack of help from the medical community, being told that if I lose weight that my symptoms will improve, trying so much harder than the average person and getting far-less in return, and the general lack of information out there about Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome.

Anyways, I guess this morning's biscuit was my fare-well kiss off to the Gluten. It's better to start making these health decisions now then in the future with the challenge of kids, right? Right. Plus, as always, the kids will provide good practice between now and then.

I am going to buy this book as soon as possible, and I also enjoyed this web-site today:

Now, I gotta get my butt on the Elliptical Trainer prior to work. I'm think of just working cardio today, and working the strength, plus cardio tomorrow (MY DAY OFF, FUCK YEAH!), and Jess will be home tomorrow. DOUBLE FUCK YEAH.

Thursday, January 2, 2014

Yumm Bowl Night

Jazzy Yumm Bowl with Grilled Asain Chicken Tender

On Yumm! Bowl nights I make Cafe Yumm (of Eugene, Oregon)'s Jazzy Bowls. Which consists of:
Jasmine Rice
Original Yumm! Sauce
Organic Red Beans
Organic Salsa 
Tillamook Cheddar
Diced Tomato
Fresh Avocado slices
Sour Cream
Black Olives

If you're not able to get your hands on some of Cafe Yumm!'s Original Yumm! Sauce than I have a pretty good copy-cat recipe to follow. It's actually an amazing recipe, but I still love buying Yumm! Sauce everytime I'm in Oregon.
Wholesome, honest-to-god, real food. 70 calories per Tablespoon
When making Yumm! Bowls the time-consuming part is preparing the sauce. Here's my copy-cat recipe of Cafe Yumm!'s Original Yumm! Sauce:

1/2 cup filter water
1/2 cup fresh lemon juice
1/2 cup cold-pressed grape seed oil (or canola oil)
1/2 cup almond flour
1/3 cup nutritional yeast
1/2 cup chickpeas, drained and rinsed
1/3 cup silken tofu
4 cloves of garlic
1/2 teaspoon salt
1 1/2 teaspoon curry powder
1 teaspoon dried oregano
1 teaspoon dried cilantro

Put all ingredients in a blender, or food processor and mix until creamy. Viola!

When making Yumm! Bowls carefully weigh out, and measure the ingredients to ensure a proper serving.
After mastering Yumm! Sauce it's pretty easy to make your own version of Yumm! Bowls at home-- I prefer the Jazzy Bowl, but have been known to make different versions from breakfast Yumm! Bowls to other copy-cat ideas from Cafe Yumm!'s website. 

The perfect feel-better soon food. 
Don't forget rooster sauce, and Liquid Aminos!

The bowl with a chicken tender came to 515 calories, 28 carbs, and 22 grams of protein. If you want to learn more about MyFitnessPal, check out my Food Diary.
A good day on MyFitnessPal-- I've been using MFP for well over a year now.