So, since my last post I think Bradford and I have a little more of an idea of what we would like to focus on in the next couple months. We haven't made any for sure plans, but are both excited over the prospect of Brad finishing school. He has two years until his undergraduate work is completed, and I think if we put our nose to the grind, down-size our expenses, we have a real chance of getting ourselves in a financial safe place, and take the steps to get Bradford back to OSU.
Oregon State University is very obtainable, and if we wait until Autumn he will officially be an Oregonian, and will no longer have to pay out of state tuition.
I am going to work towards a new goal; start doing the things I use to participate in while living in Salt Lake City. I've been mulling a few things over in my head, and I feel as if it's time to start doing the things I love. I am going to get an area set-up for my laptop, so I can start writing a little more regularly, I want to put the time into using the cameras I have, I want to cook and experiment and hoop, hoop, hoop. I want to love my job, thoroughly, and then come home and enjoy managing this space.
I miss living stress-free. I miss loving my job, like I loved working at Old Navy. I miss a kitchen that I have the freedom to experiment in. I miss taking pictures, with an actual camera. I miss making nutrition an everyday importance. I miss having dance be a daily practice. I miss fitness, and managing my time.
There are so many things that I love about my new, little, shiny life that I thought it was wrong to want anything from my "old" life. I worked so hard to obtain a life I loved, and there were so many things in Salt Lake that were good, and they were all my things-- it is time to introduce the good of the old, into my brand new dazzling.
I've expressed to Bradford needing, and wanting certain things, and like a true friend he's been helping me make sure that I do certain things in a timely manner-- for example, I have completed my paper work for insurance, and I am eligible for the Oregon Health Plan. Depending on what plan I am on, I am hoping to get back into therapy, to help reinforce the good decisions I am making in pursuit of happiness, and hep sort some feelings, along with different coping skills I've lost over the last few months.
In the meantime, to eliminate stress I am going back to focusing on the things in my life that are immediately important, drawing in my circle, cutting down on negative things in my life, cleaning up my Facebook, and downsizing my friend groups on different websites. I am celebrating 100 days of logging into MyFitnessPal, and I think it's important that I continue with this practice, and I really want an easier time celebrating the positive.
What better way can I do that than reminding myself daily of all the good in life, and what better way to focus on the positive than really surrounding myself with only positive?
There is 20 days until Imbolc, and 66 days until Ostara, the first day of Spring. In the next 20 days I want to really work on destressing my life, writing The Compound a little more regularly, hula hooping 90(+) minutes a week, while sticking to a budget and meal plan. On Imbolc, I plan on celebrating the success of the last twenty days, and seeing if I can make and break new goals before Spring.
I am hoping by taking the time to breathe easy, appreciate the small things, and being just a little bit kinder in my day to day activities, I'll have a lighter heart, and a bigger smile on my face.
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