"Oh, lady, running down to the riptide, taken away to the darkside-- I wanna be your left hand man."

I survived. It was hard for a variety of reasons, Mother's Day, but I am grateful, because I learned a lot, and came to a few realizations that I don't think I would have came to if it weren't for Sunday's struggles.

Other than that, my feelings can be summed up with; it is easier to be strong when you have someone to be strong for-- even though I know I am enough, I am really missing Jess, Ian, and the kids. Sometimes, having two other people around to be a team with helps tremendously-- I am missing co-parenting. I am missing the children. I am missing being more than just two.

Anyways, I've been really focusing myself on work, and hooping lately. I've been trying to balance my time as much as possible, and Bradford and I are even working on putting together a functional office area to be able to manage Buckleberry Hoops a little better.

It is my hopes that we will be able to put the right amount of effort into the little hoop shop that once we are in Corvallis we are stable enough for the move-- even though Buckleberry survived the move from SLC to Eugene it has been difficult to keep up the same momentum I once had.

Not having dedicated work space, dance space, and not having the same level of support when I first arrived in Oregon that I had, business wise, in Utah has made me change things up, and it's my hopes that a positive summer, full of art, hiking, camping, hooping, picture taking, cooking-- all while working, putting forth the effort to help Buckleberry succeed once relocated in the Linn/Benton area, maybe there won't be as much of a hard time.

To kick off the summer I am hosting a Hoop Jam on Saturday, June 6th with a fellow Eugene Hooper. We are both going to have hoops ready to sell during the jam, hopefully we'll have some extra hoops to play with at the Jam, I am hoping to be able to finally make a Tandem Hoop (a two person hoop), and we'll be raffling off a couple of hula hoops.

It should be really fun, and way better than last year's failed attempt to host a jam.

Other than that I am really trying to challenge myself with different festival ideas. I am hoping to sit down and write out of a list of at least 4 different summer festivals I want to either SELL hoops at, or PERFORM at. I am actually finishing my application for the Festival of Eugene 2015, where I am applying to perform at on one of the three days the Festival is going.

In addition to that on Friday Skye, Keith,Juju, Bradford and I are going hiking up at Allsea Falls (weather, and my job allowing), and we'll get some more video of me hooping. I am getting really stoked for the next video with Radiance Photographics, and I am looking forward to the next photoshoot-- Keith, has mentioned getting some LED pictures in their studio space.

All this activities planning, and future art making has me smiling. I dunno. I guess focusing on spinning in circles is making my life better. Like always.